I am so ridiculously happy in my life right now. So content with me. I kept going back and forth with thinking about dating, not dating, etc. when I realized I don't have to worry about it. It will happen when it happens.
I started reading Life Without Limits by Nick Vujicic and the purpose of his book is to help the reader live a ridiculously happy life. Everything he writes, is everything I have been saying this past year. I can't say that if I had picked up his book a year ago, that I would have understood his message. I believe that I fell upon his book when I did, because I could actually read and understand what he has to say and at the same time relate it to what I have been saying.
In the end it's about being positive even if being positive doesn't seem possible. Being happy, when being happy doesn't seem possible. Because over time, you actually start to feel happy.
Take me for example, at times when people would ask me how I was doing, I would say that I was doing good. Even if I didn't feel it. Did they know I was faking it…probably. Did they think the smile I plastered on my face was a fake one…pretty likely.
But today, today they look at me and they see someone who is ridiculously happy. Someone living in the moment. I had a friend from high school, who I have known for 14 years, tell me the other night that she has never seen me this happy, or this present. It was such a compliment, because I didn't ask her, she offered this insight with no prompting.
And the truth is I am ridiculously happy. Why? Because I am happy with who I am and what I am doing.
Have a had some bumps along the way…hell yes. Just the other day I got a speeding ticket for going 75mph in a 65 zone. I took it as a sign to slow down. And slow down I have.
Did I get passed up for a promotion at work? Yes, but I look at is at time to grow and an opportunity to show my bosses just what I can do and how much I can do.
Am I single? Has it been almost a year since I've been on a real date? Yes. But I'm okay with that. Because to be honest, I am happy with being with just me at the time being. And when the time is right, I believe I will meet someone who will be worth my time to date.
In truth these are all things I don't have to worry about. Because worrying about them will do nothing for me. Instead I can continue to focus on being the best me possible and loving me. Just as I am.
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