Dear EH,
Today I want to thank you for divorcing me. Not because I think it was the right thing to do, or because I no longer love you, because I do love you, I always will. It's because I am doing things in my life I would never have done before. Like jumping out of a plane.
Today, I went skydiving. For my birthday I wanted to buy myself a present and do something I would never had done had I still been married. Not because you wouldn't let me, but because if anything were to happen, I would not want to leave you behind.
I wanted to do something that terrified me, and something that felt so incredibly freeing. And so I chose to go jump out of a plane with a complete stranger. Trusting in them to land me safely on the ground, with only adrenaline pumping through my veins.
You see the amazing thing about skydiving is that when I was on the plane, I left all my worries behind and started flying. To live in the moment, truly live in the moment and not have any other thought other than "Holy S**t I'm flying in the air, this is incredible" well that is something I had yet to experience in my life up unto this point.
I would never allowed myself to do something like this if I were married to you. And that's ok, but today taught me that I should never allow anyone or anything hold me back.
And to clarify, you didn't hold me back, but being with you I held myself back.
So I thank you. For letting me go and letting me fly, because it's opened me to new experiences. Experiences I will cherish forever.
Love always,
Me
On a side note to my readers...if any of you ever want to go skydiving. Do it!! This was my first time and not the last. Also thank you to my best friend S.G. I wouldn't have wanted to go with anyone else. Sharing this with you was just another great memory to add to our list. Love you <3
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