2013 is coming to an end...and for the most part I accomplished all that I set out for. Except for writing consistently on this blog. Nonetheless, I am pretty proud of all that I have done. But I can't help wanting 2013 to continue for a little while longer.
Why? Because I feel there is a sort of uncertainty in my life that I would love to have resolved before the New Year. However, I know it won't be possible.
Bear and I are experiencing a little bump in the road. We want different things in our life at this moment, and because of that we aren't sure where our future as a couple is headed.
Since Christmas, it's been off. What stemmed from a miscommunication, has now turned into a realization that we both are on different pages in this chapter of our lives.
But how do we get on the same page and what happens if we don't? I would love to look into the future and see where we are headed, maybe then I would be looking forward to 2014. But right now, this uncertainty is looming over me like a dark cloud and every moment I am preparing for the rain to come pouring down.
What I have learned through all of this, is that Bear and I communicate better than I have ever been able to communicate with anyone. And I am proud of the growth I have seen in myself with this and I am proud of his growth as well.
A new year is upon us...a year to achieve more goals and to set out what I want...need in life.
Long time reader, rare commenter! I won't say I know what you're going through but this entry really spoke to me; for years I felt a shroud of uncertainty, having fallen head over heels for a man who had no desire to marry/ make a lifetime commitment. It stressed me out all the time, the thought this could all end. It caused stress and fights. In time we both had to give. He had to work on his fears and I had to relax and accept that I can't control everything. I don't believe in 1 soul mate per person, so I knew either we would work out or I'd move on and eventually be happy with someone else. In time it eventually worked out, and I hope for nothing but the best w you and Bear! rawr ;)
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