Thank you...

To my EH,

I want to thank you. Thank you for all the times you looked at me and said, "You look beautiful." I took those words for granted and at times fought you on them.

Thank you for the I love yous and for all the times you started the day with a  "Good morning my love." I often thought to myself during our relationship and marriage, and often vocalized not feeling loved. And there you were telling me time after time what I wanted to hear, but never cared to listen to.

Thank you for always being on my side, even when I didn't deserve it. Now that I am on my own, I realize how wonderful it is to have someone who loves you so much, they always see the good in you.

Thank you for the breakfasts, coffee in the morning, and dinners. Going to Coffee Bean in the morning just isn't the same and dinners, they can be quite lonely without someone looking over the dinner table and smiling at you.

Thank you for the silly music you would play. I never understood how you could listen to songs like Rack City, but now I do. I miss your dancing and wish I could turn back the time and throw my head back and laugh instead of telling you to turn off the music. You'd be surprised to know I crank that music up in my car and have adopted some of your moves.

Thank you for the kisses and the hugs. I miss those hugs. I seemed to fit so perfectly in your arms and you showed me so much comfort and love and I took them for granted.

Thank you for the wonderful surprises through out the years. The movie nights, the gifts, going to Disneyland, and so much more.

Thank you for keeping my dad company when my mom was in the hospital. For being there when he needed a shoulder to cry on. Thank you for being there for my mom and for loving her as much as I do and making sure the nurses were doing their jobs.

Thank you for being so level headed and calm, when I was not. I am sorry for all the fights I started and for all the times I had to be right. Looking back it was a waste of precious time. If I had known our time was limited, I would do it differently. And it shouldn't have taken this situation to make me realize that.

Thank you for supporting me. For working two jobs. For always wanting better for the two of us.  You carried the world on your shoulders, and I will always admire you for that.

There are a million things I could thank you for, but of all them these are the ones I wish I could tell you right now. But since you have cut communication, I can only write them down and one day hope they make their way to you.

Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Always and forever,
Your Sharkbite