This has definitely been one of my most rockiest weeks. Happy one moment, bawling my eyes out the next. I know it has to do with the fact that I am driving 400 miles to give my EH the car he wants, and then take the one he currently has. I know, I know it sounds crazy that I have to be the one to drive. But I have no energy to argue, to fight or to be bitter. So thankfully I have my friend, KC, coming with me and we are going to make a wonderful road trip out of this situation.
Will I see my EH...right now the answer seems to be yes. A couple days ago I was told he would be too busy. Then I was yelled out for telling him to think twice about that since we haven't seen each other in a month and since I don't know when I'll be up north again. I was yelled at for sounding threatening. I haven't spoken to him in a month, and the first call I get is him telling me that I'm being threatening and that I took the car he wanted in the first place.
The worst part...I still love him. Despite all of this, I love him. It's like I don't recognize this person he has become and therefore I can't just move on. And really if I could, that would say a lot about our marriage in that it wasn't all it was cracked up to be. So I take my love and want to be with him still, as a good sign. It means we were truly in love and had a meaningful relationship.
I mean, it's not that I don't get mad or angry, because I do. But for the most part I love him and can't imagine my future without him.
In other news, I want to plan a trip to Ireland for this summer. Not just want, I am going to plan a trip to Ireland. I want to get out of the country for a week. And so Ireland it is. Go me ; )
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