Wonderful Beginning...

3 states, 3 days, 1300 miles and we are finally here!

Bear has moved from Washington to California and we are beginning a new journey together. One which I know will be full of love and laughter.

It was a great road trip...and I learned a lot about myself.

I learned I am a pretty decent camper. I can sit in a car packed full of bags with my suitcase beneath my feet and a carry on bag in between me and the passenger door for 1300 miles. I sleep a lot. Seriously, I slept for about 2-3 hours each day; curled up into a ball. I learned I'm not terrified of lions, tigers, or bears. And most importantly that I can eat a pretty fair amount of junk food. 

It was an amazing adventure, and I am so happy to be settling in with Bear. What a wonderful beginning.

I Worked On Me...

I'm always amazed when other women ask me how did you do it? How did you go through your divorce and come out as happy as you are? And then comes the inevitable question...
Did you date a lot?

And I'm usually amazed because the women who ask me are older and/or seem so put together that I feel my answer is maybe not as useful as what they could come up for themselves. I guess I don't feel so wise on the subject. Nevertheless they do ask...I suppose because when you are going through something like a divorce or breakup, you seek answers from anyone you can.

My answer is always simple: I worked on me.

Then comes the question how?

I worked on healing my mind, body and soul. I found my happiness and didn't worry about finding another relationship. I didn't date to try to find the one...I worked on me.

That did mean more alone time, which can be uncomfortable. It did include more family and friends time, which at times feels difficult, when all you want to do is crawl up in a ball and cry. And it meant challenging myself.

I did things for me. I worked on me so that when the right person did come along, they were getting someone who was healthy and happy.

Sometimes my answer is lost on the person asking...and I always let them know what I did isn't the answer for everyone, but it's the only one I know. And as a result I am, for the most part, happy. When it comes to the divorce, my heart has completely healed.

I'm at the point where if I ever saw EH I would thank him. Because my life, my relationship with Bear, is better than I could have ever imagined.

Yup, I worked on me. And having learned the benefit of doing so, I will continue to work on me for the rest of my life.

Subside...

For some reason I have found myself breaking down in tears lately. Ridiculously so.

My life is definitely in a transition and these tears are coming out with no control on my part. Although I would love for them to stop...and soon...I do believe they are coming for a reason. And that at the end of this period of my life, these tears will have benefited me.

I feel so blessed in so many areas of my life and I am extremely thankful for all that I have. But one thing I am lacking right now is balance.

And hopefully when my life balances out these tears will subside.

Routine...

It's amazing how comfortable we can get with a routine.

Work out, talk to Bear, work, eat dinner, talk to Bear, go to sleep and do it all over again. Sometimes not in that order, but you get the idea.

A couple days ago Bear went to Denmark to visit his sister, brother in law, and nephew. I couldn't be more excited and happy for him, but I've noticed that the parts of my day that were dedicated to him...whelp I'm left wondering what to do with all of that time.

And it hit me. In just 5 months, I've become so use to having Bear in my life, that I've forgotten what it's like to not have him around. Even though he lives in Washington, we are still easily able to Face Time, text, and call each other.

Now that he is in Denmark, it isn't that easy. And I can't believe that I've already become so accustomed to having him in my life, that my days right now are filled with big gaps.


Although my ideal day includes Bear, I am looking forward to having more time to read...time to have lunch/dinner with friends...and possibly get in a nap or two.

When Bear first left for Denmark, I wasn't sure how I would deal with a change in my routine, but now I'm looking forward to it. I have a feeling it will be good for my mind, body, and soul.

Get After It...

In a month I'll be turning 29.  And I've decided that before I turn 30, I want to embark on a new journey. One that will hopefully lead me to getting my personal training certificate.

Inspiring others, helping others get healthy, is something I am passionate about. And although I love the job I have now, I do believe that with my history of learning to live a healthier and happier lifestyle, I can help others achieve this same goal.

I'm excited, nervous, and determined to achieve this next goal in my life, and I am inspired by those around me who are living out their passion.

I know I can do this. I know I can be great at this. And I will be sharing with all of you my journey down this personal training path.